I was on 7 different medications and saw a therapist every two weeks. At the end I checked myself into the psych hospital twice within a month! So I stopped taking my meds and haven't seen my therapist since...that was about 4 months ago. Nothing works forever and I am so tired of taking all the meds twice a day every day! But at the same time I'm terrified of what might happen. It's hard to put into words- I know I need meds but I don't want them.

I tried talking to my mother this past weekend and explain how I'm feeling. I told her that I'm crazy. Her response? "You're not crazy!! Now let's not think like this anymore and just enjoy the day." I didn't say another word.

I thank you, Bipolski, for your encouragement. I'm glad I'm not alone.