I grew up with a lot of friends, it was fun we all shared the same things in common, and we all got in trouble together. We partied, broke in to places, hung out at the park, got in fights, lots of stuff. It was fun. But as I got older I became more and more a loner, by choice I might add. Not because I felt I didn't deserve friends or to be happy, but because I preferred being a loner. The perfect job for me is sales. Because I can be many things to different people and put on a great performance, and pretend I like them, and never have to see them again. Perfect. Now that I am older, I do wish I kept in touch with a couple of friends, but my closest friends are either dead, or moved out of state.