It is mandatory that you get to a Psychiatrist as quickly as possible and tell them everything that is happening, every thought, every symptom, everything about your past medical treatment. There is a drug that will help you, but only if you stay on it long enough. If after 4-6 weeks, your symptoms are not better, tell the doctor that you want to try something else. You might have to persist in this until you find the one medication that provides relief. Its not necessary for you to live like this, but you must get a psychiatrist who can prescribe medication and possibly a therapist who can give you some tips on how to deal with your illness. You must be proactive and reactive when necessary. Your life may depend on it.