All your words are sinking in.

I'm going to do this slowly, gradually, carefully.

I have tried doing this in june 2005 and something so bad happened that is has left me with a trauma that I can't even talked about. PTSD keep dancing in my mind every day. I have to do this differently this time. Very differently and trust that time will help me out. I'm starting moving in this direction next friday.

I know that I am not saying things clearly and this is because I simply can't. I'm too used to keep things to myself. I just can't say more.

I'm going to read this thread very often as I will need each of your word to keep on going.

Thank you and thank you!
Much much love!