Miguelsmom, thats true... I'm just scared to make that bridge because I do have a lot on the line with everything. Im not even sure if im ready to get rid of my addiction to SI... its like a comfort blanket I know I'll have. I'm not just confused about the whole situation. If im sounding like I'm seeking attention, I'm sorry, im not trying to.. but I just needed advice on how to go about the situation when I'm ready