i'm sorry that you are experiencing so much pain right now.......however, i feel that there will be a man who understands and would spend time for you because of "you"........

i've had countless surgeries on my left breast and i understand how you feel about scarring and such......but, it saved our lives and we have that to be grateful for. if you can look at it as a positive scarring patttern, try that. i may even get a tattoo on mine..seriously.......

mid-life is hard. we're not young and firm and really trim, but our hearts haven't changed. unfortunately society worships youth and it's hard to deal with that sometimes. personally, i don't give a ---- about it, but that's just me. i figure i have it all over the "bimbos" because i've lived so much more and done so many more things.....it's got so much to do with how we project "ourselves". it really does. confident and friendly, open and a a good heart. i just try to lead with my heart and let things fall as they may..........

i hope i've helped you......PM me if you need to.........xoxoxo pat