It is hard coming to terms with the fact that you really are harming your body, especially when it becomes visible. I used to NEVER wear shorts or swim suits or anything like that, I was so ashamed of my scars, but finally I got to a point where I was just sick of hiding. We all make mistakes and do things we aren't proud of it. We should not be ashamed. Mental illness is REAL. It happens. While I do not encourage SI, I do not think that you should have to hide. I have scars all over my legs (I am in recovery now) and I started wearing shorts a couple of summers ago and not one person has said anything to me about them. People have scars. Inside AND out. If someone wants to judge me based on that, then they are not the type of people I, personally would want in my life.

So anyway.. just thought I'd share my experience. I hope you will find it helpful. I really do wish the best to you, that you can stop harming yourself and find healthy coping skills, which I know is not easy, but it IS possible. I have not SI'd since June of this year.

Take care,
Angel