Hello to everyone. Deep depression and only sinking deeper. I guess its really been in my life forever but over the past few years it is getting worse. If it wasn't for my special needs son I would not deal with this crap anymore. I'm not suicidal but impatiently waiting for the end. For twenty plus years doctors,therapists,hospitals,meds,nothing has helped much. Diagnosed as bipolar,more like manic depressive. The harder I work at it the harder I fall. I've had maybe 50 jobs in the past 10 years,and can't keep a job for long. Health insurance is not available most of the time. Had ssi when I was younger but they said I made to much money one year and cut it off. I've applied for help everywhere and been denied because I made just over the limit for public assistance. Everywhere where I have turned for help I have just been turned away. Please help stop this madness. I have no more will to fight it,or do anything for that matter. I can find the strength to take care of my son but it is fading fast. Please help.