Im not a doctor, your doctors know the case best. But I can see why your pdoc wants you to stay on it. It can act as a mood stabilizer and keep your depression from getting too much worse. I can also understand wanting to get off it.

If you did come off it and the depression got worse, what would your options be? You dont want to take antidepressants and you dont want to take Depakene, would you take an antipsychotic instead? Would that be a better or worse option for you? Or do you feel you will be able to cope without medication? Just some things to think about.