Does anyone else feel like it is a hopeless battle, or is it just me?

I binge eat at any emotion. I ate my way to gain a lot of weight. Last year I really tried and ended up losing quite a bit of weight. in have gained some back in the last 3 weeks from bingeing.

It's like eating makes me happy emotionally, but hurts me physically. When I was "doing good" it was such a fight every single day. It never gets easier.

Maybe I should just accept that my purpose in life is to eat myself to death.