So I guess I'm looking for some advice here...trying not to be too hard on myself so I guess I'm looking for some confirmation that I'm being reasonable..

Long story as short as possible: was released from the hospital after a 5 day hold because I took too much Xanax (didn't want to OD, just sleep...had been up 4 days) night before I was released, my husband dropped the divorce bomb on me. 8 year sexless marriage, I was a manic mess most of it anyway...we didn't have chemistry. But I was a good wife (as good as I could be, stopped myself from an affair 3 weeks before this all happened)...well now I'm finalizing a divorce. Since the day I was released, I have been stalking one of my best guy friends I've known has always had a crush on me. And now I'm onto his cousin...yikes I know. I'm moving to las vegas in 3-4 weeks to live w/ my brother & sisters so it's kind of like now or never ya know? They both know I'm not looking for a relationship so we're all on the same page. I know my psych would say I'm hypomanic but I love this feeling! I actually feel self confidence again :-) Should I feel like I need to medicate this away? I am being safe, getting the IUD & protection & all that. Where does the mania stop & being a sexuallly repressed divorcee begin?

PLEASE HELP because I trust you guys...thanks