You'll improve with a stick shift with practice and then you want be so nervous. It gets better. I'm glad things are looking up for you and glad you are happy.
It's a shame irritation and panic feelinsg have to bring to an unhappy place.
Hope the happy keeps going for you.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha