Sorry you are having a tough night. And, no, there is no way your mother can ever understand what you go through. She can do the best she can to learn all about it but it's not the same as feeling it. Though I do have to say that as long as you are living with someone else you have to be sensitive to their needs as well, even if they don't understand you. I don't know if your mother works but if she does she needs her sleep. I know you can't help how you are feeling but you can control some of the things you do. Remember that it's not all about your mother, but it's not all about you either.