Hi, Train Wreck. Welcome to Psych Central. I understand that feeling of sinking so far that I didn't care if I woke up in the mornings. In fact, I'm at that point now. I keep hoping the next medication they try out on me will work. I don't have insurance either so I understand about struggling with money issues. Thank goodness you have your son to keep you going. I have faith that you will continue to find the strength if only to take care of him.