Thank you all so much. The whole thing just left me angry, upset and hating myself. Because of course, if you tell someone with OCD with intrusive thoughts that they are a soon to be serial killer, you start having intrusive thoughts such as "am I evil?" "I must be evil if I think that" "I am evil.".

She texted me this morning apologizing but I doubt it was sincere. She's probably just scared she's going to be the first on my list.

I am proud I opened up. I just wish the outcome could have been different. I don't ask for these thoughts they just happen.