I do thank you and for your insight. I know I am stupid loving my partner knowing he will probably finally discard - it certainly makes me feel insecure at times. But, I see the man behind the disorder and the reasons he has to be perfect. I just wish I could help - not fix, not change just allow him to feel things he is unable to - show him he doesn't need to be perfect - but I guess as you say - I am probably wasting my love and my time - I'm stubborn I don't give up easily and I don't stop loving easily either!