Hi. I have Bi-Polar...for about 10 years now. I keep changing my meds. I see a psychiatrist. Bi-Polar is ruing my life. This is my recent behavior.
I am female. I am married. I had an affair, a short one. Do irrational things without thinking. I would not leave my husband. We are good friends and do most things together. Besides i am too insecure to be on my own at this point. Even if I ended it, the other guy is not ready for any sort of commitment anyway. The affair has ended and we are friends. That is all he wants. I have completely fallen for him and have become an emotional basket case, almost pushing him away. He is straight forward and honest with me but I am having a hard time accepting this whole thing. Every time I talk to him or see him I start to cry and he is getting really upset with me that I risk even our friendship which I do not want to lose. He does not know I have Bi-Polar so probably wonders why I am acting so insane all the time. He basically just says I am too emotional and crazy. I have also started drinking way too much to drown all this and I need to stop that too. That doesn't go too well with my meds. I have such low self esteem so I am going to go those forums too. Thank you.