I understand where you're coming from.

After 10 years of marriage I demanded a divorce. We separated and I too decided to have some "fun". I was safe..had an IUD..took precautions... I never got attached. I felt GREAT, desirable for the first time in years! But I had too much fun (as odd as that sounds). I slept with many inappropriate men (boss's son and married men). It lasted about three months. I justified it at the time telling myself that this is just what people do after a divorce. That was the worst manic episode I ever had! When the mania stopped I realized what I had done and how destructive I really was being and I became suicidal... I ended up in the mental hospital.

I can't give you advice... but I wish you the best!