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Originally Posted by gayleggg
It sounds like you have really struggled the last few years. I can't imagine feeling that bad for that many years. My heart goes out to you. You say you don't take any medication. Have you considered seeing a psychriatrist and taking meds? Maybe it is just what you need to pull yourself out of this downward spiral. :hug:
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No. No way. I am not going to put myself on any sort of medication.
Honestly, I see it as a flippin' joke. Scientists develop these medications, not fully understanding how they work, what effects that they'll have on the human brain, or just how the human brain works, in general. It's such an inexact science; we're prescribed medication upon medication upon medication, stacked, switched, increased doses, lowered doses, the works, hoping to come across the "magic mixture" that has more of a desired effect than an undesired effect. Meanwhile, we see our psychiatrist, we tell them that the medications "don't seem to work" or have an "undesired effect", and they switch the medication out for a different one, or lower the dosage, or remove it altogether. Meanwhile, our brains are being flooded with all sorts of chemical cocktails, our entire personality changes, we lose who we are... I've been on so many different medications, and none of them have helped. They've made me unstable, they've given me undesired sexual side-effects, they've stripped me of emotion, and I'm not going to take another pill. No way, no how.
It's such a freakin' joke. How can we treat that which we cannot even begin to fully understand? I'm open to seeing a therapist, and I honestly believe that to be a valid treatment method, but, when it comes to psychological medication, we may as well live in medieval times, and I am not going to do that to my mind and body. Not anymore.
...I'm sorry about the rant. I just... I do not want to go down the medication route any further. That rabbit hole would take me nowhere.
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Originally Posted by NextToNormal
He has taken meds. All different kinds. Nothing works for him.
I'm a friend of his irl, btw.
I hate to see him do this to himself, but I don't know what to do.
I'll try to keep being here for ya though, Jishkah. :throb:
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Thanks, NextToNormal. It means a lot to me. More than I can put into words.
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Originally Posted by shattered sanity
do you have plans?
do you even know what you want to do
that would be a good start..
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No, I don't have plans. Throughout the entirety of my life, I've never had plans. A passion. Anything to, well, to strive for. I don't understand how anyone could. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know what I want for my future, and, to be honest, I've never really cared.
EDIT: I'm sorry. Whatever coherence and "depth" that I had before, whatever level of expression that I was able to previously put forth, is gone. I think that's about it for this post, at least for a while...