If your purpose for going is simply looking for an argument do you think it's time to walk? The interesting thing is, I mentioned last week that for a while I've picked up my T having hostile feelings towards me. I just sensed that in her, and in response I could feel tension building in me to a dislike back at her. Her response was that she this way because of my aggressive defensive way of being, and that she's trying to keep up with me in session, because I talk quick, I'm looking around constantly at the clock, I fidget with my feet etc..

She also said that " if you're looking for a fight then bring it on " was her genuine emotion and started moving her hands in a boxing way with closed fists. She got the impression I was looking for a fight with her ( not physical obviously ), whereas I got the impression she's looking for a fight with me and have the exact same attitude towards her.

What she said though with moving her hands seems like a challenge to me. I feel enticed to go back simply to have a huge argument with this T. It kinda feels enjoyable, but a part of me thinks I'm a man and she's a woman and this is all kinda petty and a waste of money. Another part of me feels I have unfinished business, I really want to see her anger at me so I can blow up back. If I walk away I'm forever going to view this T with a strong dislike and anger.

My destructive side needs to be unleashed I feel. In many ways it would feel somehow therapeutic to me.