I know what you mean about telling people. I don't tell people what is going on with me, but people know I am not there with them, like the rest of the people in the room are there with them. Especially in hypomania. When the pressured speech and cascading ideas begin, I can see it in people's eyes, they aren't sure they follow me, and they aren't sure they want to. But there is a part right before that where I am incredible, I am SO on, and I can get almost anything accomplished, and people LOVE that, and I always feel like people want 25% of me around, it's that prime spot. But the lows, and the highs, and the real real highs, and the crash, no one wants any of that. It is very hard not to resent people for that. I always feel like 'what?! You think these ideas an this energy come from being normal?! How on earth cold that be?' But other people don't see it that way, they just want what they want. I hate that! I sort of hate normal people, but I fight that.
Anyhow, I hear you, and I am totally in your corner!
And I think rants are awesome! We like to rant, other people want everything to be moderate and civilized all the time, but some times it just isn't that way, and that is one thing that bipolar people really really know about.
Rant on!
Sending you good vibes.
MT