I don't think better is the right word, less angry more "I want to get into trouble" and/or be destructive. I'm in a different maybe more dangerous head space because I can plan, hopefully enough to keep myself out of trouble, but still find "disturbing" things pretty. I feel like my veins are all caffeinated and need to be ripped out or that it would be best if I believed in bloodletting but that won't work. H knows but I don't think I'll be sleeping tonight.