That sounds like a great session, rainbow! I'm glad it felt good to you - that is really something to appreciate in yourself, isn't it?! You were open to relating on this level and could take in the good things and the good enough things.

I admire your ability to imagine the way you would have liked to have your parents pay attention to you. It is hard for me to go there, to take that leap.

It sounds like you received mixed messages from the attention you received - it was caring and at the same time it seemed to say you weren't good enough 'as-is'. What enormous anxiety and confusion you must have felt!

I love those sessions that are so good when we least expect it!