Well now.

I had roughly a day from hell. Then went to therapy and couldn't tell you anything that we talked about except that my T doesn't really think that I want to change. I wasn't listening as I was trying to not have a meltdown.

Had a friend pick me up as we had plans as he had a rough weekend. Instead of going to his place like we normally would he wanted to come to mine - I'vel ived in this flat for almost a year and he's never set foot in it. So he came over while I have a houseguest here.

I got hammered.

I then put myself to bed without informing either of them because I was going to meltdown, so I got into my room and proceeded TO melt down.

And emailed my T in the middle of it. I mostly typed the same thing about a million times and didn't make TOO many horrendous typos. I did however type out half-thoughts and then recounted bits of the conversation when my friends finally clued in that I was MIA.

:S