See this is where your thinking pattern is wrong.
You ARE able to, you are not allowing yourself to. The more you think this way, the more true it becomes in your mind.

If your parents are of the understanding type, why not try and reason with them. Meaning have them look out for suitors, but that you don't have to agree to marry unless you think it may be a good match...

If this is an option I strongly suggest you try it, and NOT divulge your past too quickly. My reasoning is that your parents may know a better breed of men, and may just present you with a suitable man, one that will treat you with the respect you deserve. I can't honestly imagine any good father marrying his daughter off to a scumbag.

Also, try not being sO open about your past. A partner really doesn't need to know every single detail of the life you lead before him, share only what is relevant to the relationship.

See in your case, virginity is relevant, you can say you had a longterm bf, you thought it was leading toward marriage and thus you felt it safe enough to have sex with him.

Only that.

You don't need to name and number who you did what with, it doesn't benefit anybody really and has already opened up so many opportunities for you to get hurt.