Ok, so firstly, the speed, as you already know, isn't doing you or your boyfriend any good. In fact, it will be having a detrimental effect on both your lives. I know this because I have also gone through the same addiction. It causes all sorts of problems and the main one being with your moods. It also made me suicidal.

You can't control what your boyfriend does but you can certainly control what you do so seek some help and come off that horrible drug.