I know that a lot of terrible things have happened to a lot of people, but to be completely honest, I don't feel like I fall into that category. My life has been pretty normal, so I don't feel like I have the right to feel depressed, or the right to harm myself. I feel pathetic as it is, and this just makes me feel... even more so.

I suppose the atmosphere in my house can get really toxic, but isn't it like that with all families? My parents are overbearing but I'm an only child, so I don't really have perspective on what a family should be like except for theirs. Everyone tells me how lucky I am and stuff, but I just want to strangle them. I stress out about my future and about my past, but obviously I'm just too stupid to cope with even this amount of pressure. I don't really know how else to explain it, but I just feel like I don't have the right to be depressed or triggered or anything.

Thanks for reading.

- AJ