The right??? Not to make light of your statement (cuz that is NOT my intention). In fact, I fully "get" what you are saying. Yet the statement "sounds" funny in my head.

But you DO have that right..... Your suffering is not because of anything YOU did.

I visit several websites and I see so much pain and abuse and crap thrust upon good people.... It really is heartbreaking. It is unfair that so many suffer, when they do not deserve such pain.

I feel that my depression is *self inflicted*. Yes I had it as a kid/teenager/young adult/ even a not so young adult. But it was under control until I had an affair. Then the guilt was so great that I went over the edge. MANY suicide attempts - and nobody had a clue of what was going on. Yet here I am....

So, I read of all the pain you all endure and my heart breaks. And I can not (not just words - I literally can not) look in the mirror. I HATE THAT MAN. And I have no right to "understanding".

So, I disagree with you. You DO have the right. But more importantly you *deserve* to get better.