ended up on the phone to samaritans

was talking to someone online and i was gonna have this big meltdown- and i told her, look, i don't know what to do (insert some swear words)

she's like, well, i don't know how to support people with bipolar... is their a support line you can call to chat?. i've got to go to work anyway!

she convinced me eventually... it's the support line, best thing at the moment you can do

i'll give her credit, she didon't leave until i was safely connected with someone

so yeah.... having a rough time