Almost missed my Med dose. Feeling like crap. Beating myself up because of how my personality is. Then back to work tomorrow. So work two days then off for two days. Crappy crappy crappy not looming forward to going back. Wish there was an easier way to make money. Kindda wish life was easier for people like me. Dealing with crap like this it is a disease. It eats at a persons mind and makes them question everything. I'm over therapy I'm over meds I thought I was doing better. I was accepting me and now not so much. I want to beat the crap outta myself. These thoughts need to stop. I'm not suicidal I just hate me right now.