Sorry to hear that man. I don't think it sounds bad to me personally. I can very much so sympathise. One of my biggest fears is my brother or my friend getting married because I know I'd have to be involved with the wedding and I'd really prefer not to go at all. I hate being around people, hate all the required interactions, the staring, the judging, the complaints that I've caused offence even though nobody cares that they've caused offence to me by laughing when I stim.