Still feeling melancholy, my T would croak if she knew I did not go to my son's house tonight and instead sent a message to someone that was probly a mistake but cant be taken back. Too bad I meant it. It wasnt bad but impulsive. At least I did get a cbt book for bp and hub gets home in the morning so I should be ok. I hate the downswing of bp. I'm not crying! Just quiet. And trying to read, cant concentrate. Too many what ifs going through my head. I hope I didnt just ruin my friendship.