Aside from the pot I can related. I never liked pot because it makes me way too paranoid, I'm talking schizo paranoid, not are they looking at me? More like I know they are plotting to kill me! So that's one drug I can never take

But all the others you named I can relate to. Here's where it turned around for me. I realized I was doing all those meds to feel better, yet I wasn't. At some point I relaized that what I really want is to feel normal, so for me it's essential for me to be totally 100% in control and fully functional. Which is why I refuse to take even SSRIs because they make me feel like crap. About the only meds I take now is Wellbutrin and Xanax (low doses) as needed. I can trust myself because i found what my sweet spot is, and that is feeling normal. No anxiety, no depression, just normal. I like that and I am addicted to that feeling. I wish I got it more often. But over medication is not the way.