First of all, i don't understand why you need to label yourself so much. If it's validation you're looking for, a label won't do anything for that anyway. Does having DID versus ddnos make you somehow better, more valid, more great? I just don't understand why you feel the need to compare yourself so much to what other people say, which is the entire basis of what labels are. How will a label help you understand yourself any better? If anything it would confuse you more, I would think. You'd be looking at other people's accounts of their symptoms, think, that's my dx, so I must feel that too, and there is another symptom. Only how would you know if that's because you think you 'should' feel it based on your dx, or if it's because you actually feel it.

Why not focus on learning about YOU, which is the purpose of therapy to begin with anyway. Focus on how you feel, how you act. Technically, all your entire dissociatve stuff was 'made up' to begin with anyway. Your mind created the alters, your mind remembered issues, your mind decided what it needed to survive. It 'made up' all these solutions to get through the situation. That doesn't mean they're not real, it means that if you're worried about making things up, they already have been.

my suggestion would be to start asking yourself these questions, and be willing to listen for the answers. The answers coming from your mind would be way more authentic, fitting and helpful than anything you could read from looking up a diagnosis. If it scares you, do what you can to make yourself feel safe, but in order to heal you're going to have to confront them and learn about them anyway. Avoiding it will not help you.