Thank you so much for your thoughtful response. You really seem to understand, and yes, I did have a traumatic childhood, was left by my mother when I was about three years old. She moved to another country. Was later, at the age of 9 sexually molested by my stepfather, after my mother decided she wanted me back. Of course, I can't really blame her, or anyone else for the choices I made as an adult. However, I do remember my mother always saying when I grow up I would turn out no good. So there is my script in a nutshell. I have to write a different script. The old isn't working. I like your suggestion of tutoring and have thought about doing that as well. What could be worse than living in another abusive situation? I suppose, continuing the cycle of abuse by walking into these kinds of relationships. If it's the last thing I do, I am going to begin, one day at a time, to mother and father myself, to begin caring for my body, soul, and spirit so that whatever life is left, it will be the life I am choosing. I can always sell my condo. The physical and financial details can be worked out as long as I have enough backbone to get away from abusive situations. Again, thank you so much for the support. It came at a very needy time in my life and is most appreciated and welcome. Thank you.