No i get it. Ive struggled my entire life..n i ask myself is this who im jus meant to be? A fat person? Ive gone on special diets done them all but its sooo hard. It consumes u and its an emotional battle. I must say since starting topamax meds it hasnt made me lose weight as it can for some, but it takes away my emotional obsessions with food and lets me make healthier choices and im not hating myself as i used to. Have you researched the medication?