I'm not sure we ever finish processing a trauma, since new life experiences/traumas seems to bring out the old one for review ... and we see it in a new light, or feel it in new ways--and so have to deal with it all over again.
In my experience, it least.
... Another piece of the puzzle in my belief that there are no abrupt endings and beginnings, merely transitions.

I had a thought about the messed up everything ... could diet be involved? I went on a low inflammation diet years ago that sorted me out in several ways. I shop primarily at Asian grocers, where these foods are easily obtained. That may be a problem in the country where you are.
Missing you, keeping you in my heart ...