Thank you, I am. She and I actually has a frank discussion last night about her depression and the way she feels disconnected. As she explained it to me she feels little hope for anything when she is in this state and that includes to ever feel close to me again. I shared with her some of what I had been reading yesterday on these forums, trying to reassure her that she was not alone and that others have similar experiences. She seems comforted when I except what she is feeling, including her fears, as real, while at the same time reassuring her that this is only how she feels now, not how she has always expressed feeling, and that she will at some point feel differently.

She is in therapy with a decent therapist who believes he can help her, she is unsure of whether or not he pushes her hard enough. She has been on antidepressants for many years. While some, most recently lexapro at 20mg alleviated depression, she was in a constant state of anxiety which was equally as bad if not worse. She switched psychiatrists and has started on zoloft, currently at 150 mg qd but feels it is making her anxiety worse rather than better.

thanks for all the advice and understanding, I hate watching her go through this and miss my best friend. I will keep posting.