I don't go out either except when I have to. In my case I don't like most people and don't feel I need them, not even my brothers. Not sure if this is "normal." I can't drive cuz I can't walk. But when I did drive I drove wrecklessly. Once I got on meds my impulsiveness thankfully declined, because I wasn't being safe in the other area you mentioned. bpd seems like a confusing disorder to have-at least to me. Everything is a chore to me. Laundry, cooking, trying to clean...even showering. But then my body doesn't cooperate with me anyway, as well as my mind. Frustrating. So, I can understand what you're saying, def.