Why are you not able to take no for an answer? Wouldn't you want the same favor granted to you? I would be careful if I were you, this could be construed as stalking. This person is not your mother. Your survival does not depend on him. You have evidence that he is alive and well (at least online), otherwise you would be contacting the authorities. You do not want to be contacted by the authorities on his behalf. Please contact a therapist asap, not this person again.