Just wanted to thank everyone for the help! I appreciate all the advice and shared knowledge and experiences with medications!

I feel ashamed going back on meds. I feel as though I have failed in some way. does anyone else share this same feeling?
I have been on and off meds a few times in the last 10 years, and right now I am feeling better after being on them for only 3 days. It's amazing. I literally felt the desire to get out of bed today. First time that's happened in months. Strange... I hate saying that meds are an answer - but in all honesty - there is currently a major correlation with meds and my feeling better.
Thanks,
HD7970Ghz