Thank you for sharing your story. I lost my spouse to suicide two years ago. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and have not worked in the past year. I have a difficult time even getting outside of my house. I still have all his belongings in the house and struggle whether to continue renting or to move. I feel if I move, I will be losing part of him, but I feel that it may be making it harder to move on. Also if I decided to move, should I move to Arkansas, closer to my parents or stay in TX where my three grown children live. I live in TX now, but 1-2 hrs away from my children. They have their own life and I feel I have no one, so I remain depressed and lonely. I spent some time this summer in AR with family and a long time friend. Needless to say now my friend and I are no longer speaking. My parents are in their 70's which I speak with my mother but I don't have a relationship with my dad. I feel I only exist but I'm not living. I tried getting away from my house but would have bad anxiety so far away from my children. I'm interested if you have any advise on how to move on.