Mona thank you... I think the thing that hurts most is the reality that I am just a job to her and that we can never be anything more. Although I understand that we have a therapeutic relationship it doesn't seem to be enough and I too have realised that she doesn't care. She watches the clock all the time and never goes over by a minute! I wish I could experience that glow or connection that another thread referred to. She wasn't having an off day - i think you are right, mine won't lie herself care either.