I posted this in BPD because I kinda feel like that's home...not, evidently, according to my T....I need to share domains. FFS

So it's official...saw my T today and in addition to the BPD, the BP2...and the ADD that I already knew about for years...my god, my life is an acronym....now she thinks there is 'a possibility' that I'm NPD as well. She said it is not uncommon and after what I 'shared'....oh ffs....

she wants me to go on meds...suggests 'strongly' I go back to the psych doc that was recommended by the md I saw at the beginning of this fiasco...I've seen him a total of ONE time...long enough for him to recommend a T who was weirding me out worse than I do on my own...I found THIS T and she says, go BACK to him? So he can prescribe meds??? After I told her I don't want anything to do with them???

Irrational fear of drooling for no reason associated with the scent of a delicious food. Irrational fear of twitching, for no reason associated with being poked with a pin. Irrational fear of LOSING MYSELF and becoming a zombie...associated with taking meds. Yes, I'm not altogether rational, and yes I have issues...but I recognize them now so...can we skip the automatic 'put the b***ch on meds' and go to ...some useful tools to stop freaking out at a drop, hat or shoe.....or at least to help work through them? Just knowing there is a REASON helps...but ffs...do I have to medicate myself into oblivion to deal with it?????????

Sorry..ranting....wow that felt good. Wish I could have done that with my T but she would have, being as I'm new to her...locked me up, for sure. (sigh)