You definitely don't sound like you're seeking attention. A lot of us have been there and it can be very confusing to work out and overcome. You're right that it can be like a comfort blanket - it is an addictive way to manage stress and anxiety. And overcoming it will need to be in your own time. I know from experience - it doesn't matter how many times people tell you something you still need to make that final decision yourself about what you are going to do. And if you're not ready, that's ok.

I really agree though - keep trying to reach out when you can. It is hard and unfortunately not everyone is as supportive as they should be but when you find the people who can really support you it does make it worthwhile and makes overcoming it and moving forward a lot easier.