doubt it i tried to talk about my feelings and she just kept repeating herself.it's like my family all over again.not being listened by my own family and now counselor.i cry a lot when i'm by myself because i was told as a kid i was not allowed to express my feelings and i got hit real bad at times for crying growing up.they called me weak,overly sensitive,stupid,retard etc.i hold a lot of stuff in because of fear of rejection,being hit,being called names like what happened to me growing up.even my grandmother was nasty to me.one time she lost her 1 dollar hair brush then blamed it on me and said i ruined her life by moving in the same state as her.when she died my family tried to force me to talk about her in front of everyone at the funeral.but i was not going to go and say how great of a person she was when all she did was say mean and nasty things to me and others.she died 9 years ago and i don't even miss her one bit
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