Awwww Blue Your so strong .. stronger than you could possible know.

You are not a failure .. Look at all the hell you have gone through fighting for you older kids .... But the time comes when they are going to have to suck it up and find the help they need .

Right now I want you to take care of YOU ! You need time to rest and heal , Time to decide just how to map out your next stage of life ..

I have to run out .. But I will be back I promise ..

I love ya C .. you are not alone , not at all