I haven't been here for awhile. School has been stressful, but I love it. I love spending six hours after school doing homework and studying, knowing how much the AP's will pay off once I'm in university.

I'm so drained with everything, with school and with my depression, I feel so worn out. Not to mention one of my dear friends is in the hospital and I can't stop checking my phone every five minutes. He's okay now, mostly going stir crazy in the hospital. Boy do I know what that's like.

At the beginning of the year, I was rethinking going to art school. I've had it all planned out for the last five years, but it never fit right. Now I've decided what I really am meant to be doing, and I'm going to go into Psychology, but I wonder if that's a crazy idea. I want to, I want it more than everything, and it fits so well, but I wonder if that's not a good idea what with my own problems. I handle people's problems well, no matter how *I'm* feeling at the time, but I worry talking to a patient and talking to a friend is different, too different and difficult for me to handle. I don't know. I just know I really want this, and I'm happy I've worked my *** off in high school thus far, especially since it wouldn't have really paid off in art school.