I'm just scared of it . I dont know if I will look good later on or not. I dont know how people will treat me . I dont know what to expect in the way of who I will become... be like. Its the unknowns that get to me. How will I change as a person?

I have had alot of surgeries... so I know what that is going to be like. As long as they dont give me any versed I'll be ok lol.

I am not talking to a surgeon yet. My one doctor recommended the OSU Medical Bariatric Center. I have yet to find out if they are in network or not and if the doctor is in network or not.

Ohhh golly what havent I tried to get this stuff off me!

I started around 6th grade.. doing a school program of just eating healthy foods in all the food groups with the school nurse as a leader. We went to a local gym for exercising.

Tried some of the usual easy( not really) things by making myself throw up. Till I got ulcers and infections, that did not feel good. And exlax. Pounds came back with friends.

I've tried Thin and Healthy Program.. not sure if this is a national program or not. Basically again its healthy eating and exercise program. The exercise program was too hard for me. I couldnt keep up with what they expected me to do.

I've been on WW about 5 times . Losing weight well but always gainging back with friends.

I have yet to talk to my therapist or psychiatrist about this. I have appts coming up soon that I will be doing that though.

*Keep in mind .. I am still considering this, but not yet totally sold. I am checking things out to see if I could even pursue it. And I am researching thru people in town here that have had it also. So I get as informed as I possibly can.