No matter how tired I get, I always try to stay up after my wife and daughter go to bed. By the time my wife puts my daughter down we are both normally pretty tired, so she normally falls asleep. This is kind of a problem because we both want time together in the evenings after our daughter goes down. But once they are both asleep, I just want to stay up and up and up! Sometimes working, sometimes cleaning, sometimes watching netflix, whatever... But I'll routinely stay up until 12 or 1, sometimes as late as 3 or 4, even when I have to get up at 6:30, which is 5 days a week. Is this bp? I have this feeling like it is of the utmost importance that I be alone with my thoughts, you know? It's already a crowd in there, it is very taxing for me to deal with people all day, by 9PM I just want to be alone and I am happy to forego sleep to be alone, but obviously this is unhealthy and feeds into hypomania down the line.
Does anyone experience this? Any suggestions?
MT